Shall I say...

I've been into movie marathons lately. Most of it, of course, were love stories. And after every movie, I will have that feeling inside of me that I can't actually explain. If it's a happy ending, I want to experience the same feeling the characters went through. If it's a sad ending, I'll stay awake all night thinking of how things should went along the way for the characters to be happy in the end. If someone died in the end, I'll think that the writer is crazy for not giving the characters the happiness that they deserve. I am a sucker for happy ending. Well, that's me, this has been me.

The feeling of having that pain in your chest after watching "Romeo and Juliet" and wondering what if Romeo read the letter?" If Romeo only knew that everything was just a set-up, he would have stayed away until everything is okay and everything will be alright then. Only if everything was done according to plan, then Romeo and Juliet would have been the happiest couple alive for they lived happily ever after. But they fought for their love, even if they both died in the end and for me, that's really wonderful, something that I want to do in the future.

The feeling of laughing while watching the entire movie "Just Married" because of the crazy things Tom and Sarah does. Their crazy honeymoon in Europe with the intruder, Peter. They always fight but they always make out. Even if they are two crazy people who seemed to be not serious about the relationship. Tom fought for Sarah, and so does she. In the end, despite everything, the people who were once against their relationship believed that their love is real and forever.

The feeling of crying whenever I hear the OST "My Heart Will Go On" of the movie "Titanic" even if it's just instrumental (and until now I don't want to hear the song because it makes my heart beat fast, not kilig, but lungkot for the tragedy happened in the movie) Whenever I see the movie, I am like this- "shit! tanga naman kasi nung driver (driver talaga?! :P) kung di bumanga sa yelo ehdi sana di ako iiyak ng ganto!" Titanic, indeed, is one of my favorite movie, even if I felt to emotionally tortured whenever I see the movie because the ending really tragic. A love buried in the deepest of the ocean, but was kept in Rose's heart. A love that was forgotten by time but always remained in the heart. True love is indeed unforgettable, priceless, and meaningful.

I've never been in a relationship so I don't know the feeling. Maybe it's the main reason why I love watching romantic films, because I am looking for the best love story and wishing mine will be like theirs.

Before, I consider myself "pathetic" because while everyone is in a relationship, I am sitting on the corner of the room, not envious about them, only sleeping because I am contended with dreaming of that guy that I will call mine. But now, I just consider myself "reserved" for that man who will love me the way I'll love him. I am not going to chase love, I will just wait patiently for that guy to come out of my dreams and come into reality.